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Pepperoni Basil Tomato Puff Snacks

Hello foodie people.  Today I wanted to make a snack that My Husband I have occasionally. I found this recipe some time ago on Eat Well 101 it’s called Pepperoni Basil Tomato Puff Snacks and is a bite size snack that is delicious and taste great with a salad.

I decided to make this snack as today I’m decorating the house for Christmas and wanted something delicious and fulfilling since it will take me most of the day as I like everything to be perfect. I know your saying its way to early but I love the holiday., They bring family together and that so important anymore. Life is to short so enjoy your family as much as you can.

My daughter and son are coming next week with my grand daughter and I wanted it to be decorated for their visit. We are having an early thanksgiving this year since my daughters vacation starts then. I’m overly excited as its been along time since I have lived so far away from them. Visit are not easy like they used to be.

OK enough about me and on to the recipe. I hope you enjoy this. Don’t forget it taste great with a garden salad.

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INGREDIENTS

  • 1 sheet puff pastry
  • 1 or 2 tomatoes, sliced
  • 1/2 cup shredded Parmesan
  •  Sliced Pepperoni
  • Fresh basil, chopped
  • 1 egg yolk mixed with 1 teaspoon water, for gilding
  • Salt and fresh cracked pepper

DIRECTIONS

1. Preheat your oven to 360°F (180°C). Roll out the puff pastry and transfer on a baking sheet lined with parchment paper. Cut 9 squares (approx. 3-inch/8cm)

2. On each square, arrange a tomato slice, topped with 2 pepperoni slices, parmesan, salt, pepper and chopped basil. Fold to opposite corners of each squares to form little boats.

3. Brush each pastry with the egg yolk, then refrigerate for 10-15 minutes before baking in the oven for 15-20 minutes, until cheese is melted and pastries are puffed and golden. Serve immediately, enjoy!

Double the recipe if you want more.

 

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Old Places and Things

Abandoned house in Liberty, Missouri.

I Absolutely love old abandoned Places and Things.. In-fact I have an board on Pinterest just for that. I have over 350 pictures of old things.

It's funny how with age everything changes and you want things that you once said no to. You are now like yes whey didn't I like that years ago.

My favorite things are old place likes houses and barns any kind of old buildings. They once told of story of happiness or sadness.

I have some old pictures of mental home places and only God knows what kind of stories they could tell. Here are some of my  favorites.

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I love Grand Staircases

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Can You imagine how beautiful  this would be restored

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I remember my  grandmother had and old well and my mother would walk to draw water from it.

Old mill, Black Forest, Germany.

Love.. Love this old mill in the woods

Thankful

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Well I think it's safe to say that the spirit  of Christmas  has hit me. I not only made the above picture my screen saver on my phone, but also decorated the house.

I've always loved Christmas, however some years are very difficult for me. This time last year my husband Martin put up the tree only, because  I was severely depressed.

I started to withdraw from my friends and family for days at a time. I had never felt this kind depression before. By Christmas I simply just couldn't  take life anymore. It was then that I spent weeks in bed. I really didn't understand  what was happening to me. I felt like life wasn't worth it anymore.

I just thank God I kept holding on to what faith I had. If it was not for him saving me  I'd  be dead today. I really prayed for death every single day.

I thank God things happened the way they did, it may have caused me to lose my friends, but at least I have a whole new take on life. Trust me I have bad days with this bipolar depression but at least my outlook is different. I stopped trying to please the world and concentrated on me. It was truly the only way I'd get better. It cost me my friends and I almost lost my family but thankfully they still love me.

I guess when your really down and out and trying recover, that's when you find out who's truly there for however long it takes for you to get well. And it took me months and months but I guess I pushed everyone away by wanting to be alone. I just couldn't get people  to understand that I  couldn't  help myself to feel different. I wanted  to be ok but my mind wouldn't let me.

It's a year later now and things are different for me. I've learned  to take any and all happiness that comes my way. I'm so thankful to my father and his son Jesus for sparing me and my family the terrible thing as suicide. I sometimes can't  believe that I  was so sick that I  wished for death everyday and almost made that possible.

It's so different this year for the holidays. For the first time in many years I'm actually looking forward to it. I've learned to except the fact that certain family members will be with me if they really want to, and if they don't that's fine to. As long as I have my husband and all my fur babies I can and will survive. I will just pray for those I love who feel different, that no matter what maybe someday things will be ok and if not at least I had hope.

Hope and faith is everything. Having that in life is everything you need to help you survive bipolar depression.

 

 

Music has the power to heal your soul

I was sitting here trying to remember what I was just thinking about when I relized I actually had no thoughts.  I was merely singing the words to the music I was listening to and that was all. I really love music and listen to it all day.

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Music Has The Power To Heal Your Soul

Music has a way of making me feel wonderful no matter what kind of mood I'm in. It's so soulful. If I'm happy its makes me even more happier. If I'm sad it bring me a sense of peace.  If I'm angry it calms me.

I started really listening to music as a young child. My beautiful mom who had long shiny black hair had a old record player and she would play music on it. She was a big fan of Conway Twitty and Loretta Lynn, George Jones and Tammy Wynette. She also loved the Statler Brothers, Ohh and Elvis Presley.

 

As I became a young teenager, I discovered Rock n Roll and was hooked thanks to my distant cousin Sharon. Bands like Queen, Styx, ACDC and my favorite the Eagles were very big at that time. I would sit in my room and listen to my 45's of them. I had also discovered Black Lights, posters and Marijuana. When I think of those days, I'm totally amazed that I got away with it as strict as my parents were, but glad I did because it shaped me into the person I am today.

My first concert was ACDC and man was I young. In fact I had lied to my parents and went to this concert anyway after being told no. I always hung out with people older than me, don't know why. I had a friend who a jeep and she would hang out with a bunch of people who smoked Marijuana and sometimes I got to go with her,  by that time I may have been 13 or 14 years of age. Yes  I know I started much to young.

Seeing ACDC in concert was wild. Malcolm Young pulled his pants down and mooned everyone. Suddenly I got my first glance at a  penis  hanging out by men dropping there pants around me to moon as well. Yes I was very much shocked. Never had endured that kind of behavior before. It's funny as I think of it now. I can imagine a young country girl who had strict parents experiencing this kind of behavior for the first time must have been a little scary at first.

My second concert I went to was after getting married at a very young age of a few weeks shy of 16. My husband and his friends were big on partying which was right up my alley.  Getting to see Heart in concert was a dream, they had just come out with the hit Barracuda and I loved it. I got to see many people in concert during those years with my husband at that time. In fact the 7 years we were married  I saw at least 15 to 16 bands. One of my favorite concerts was Alice Copper. He did some great stage shows in those days.

My husband and I divorced after 7 years of being togethe. We decided that divorce was best as we both were much to young when we got married. I had then moved to a different town and starting to hang out with my neighbor who listened to country music. I feel in love with it and soon my love for country developed which lead to me meeting my second husband.  He to loved to listen to country music full blown and we hit it off so great that we were living together months later. His love for Conway brought memories of my parents listening to him when he was in his 20's singing. AAhhh those were some good memories.....

I saw Conway Twitty at least 5 times while we were together in fact when Conway died its devastated us both. Well I would have to say my husband more as he could imitate his voice and sang just like him. He also had every Album Conway had out.

It's been 28 years now and my Music has widen so much.  Thanks to my husband now of 18 years I have learned to listen to a little of everything. He's Dutch so my music really changed. I went from Rock n Roll to Country to New Age and Pop.

I don't listen to the old country anymore. It's really hard as it brings back to many sad and hurtful momories from my parents death to my terrible divorce from my second husband. I love that Martin my husband now has a wide range of music. We listen to everything from Opera to synthesizer Music.

I don't listen much now to any of the old stuff as I just get depressed. Why should I put myself through that. Doesn't mean I don't love it anymore, it's just not healthy for me.

I think I'm just happy to be alive now and get to listen to music at all since that's one of my biggest loves. I love the new pop we hear today. It doesn't let me think about all the pain I've endured in my life.....

Keto hamburger patties in tomato sauce with fried cabbage

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Good afternoon you wonderful people. I found this recipe for Keto hamburger patties in tomato sauce and thought it looked good. I tweaked it a bit by adding the onion and hot pepper flacks.  Hubby and  I are starting the keto diet. We are going to try to eat keto most of the winter as that’s when we both gain weight. I even found a keto Thanksgiving dinner to make and will share it later.

This sounds so good can’t wait to make it tonight..

Have a wonderful day !!

Ingredients

Hamburger patties

  • 1 1/2 lbs hamburger meat
  • 1 egg
  • 1/2 cup shredded  Mexican cheese
  • 1 tsp salt
  • ¼ tsp ground black pepper
  • 2 oz. fresh parsley, finely chopped
  • 1 medium onion
  • 1/2 hot pepper flacks
  • 1 tbsp olive oil, for frying

Gravy

  • ¾ cup heavy whipping cream
  • 1 oz. fresh parsley, coarsely chopped
  • 2 tbsp tomato paste 
  • salt and pepper

Instructions

  1. Add all ingredients for the hamburgers in a large bowl except for oil. Blend it using a large spoon or your clean hands. Don’t over mix since that can make your patties tough. Use wet hands to form eight oblong patties.
  2. Add  olive oil to a large frying pan. Fry over medium-high heat for at least 10 minutes  or until the patties have turned a nice color. Flip them a few times for even cooking.
  3. Add tomato paste and whipping cream to the pan when the patties are almost done. Stir and let simmer for a few minutes. Salt and pepper to taste.
  4. Sprinkle chopped parsley on top before serving.

Fried green cabbage

  • 25 oz. shredded green cabbage
  • 4¼ oz. butter
  • salt and pepper

Butter-fried green cabbage

  1. Shred the cabbage finely using a food processor or sharp knife.
  2. Add butter to a large frying pan. (is delicious fried in a teaspoon of bacon grease)
  3. Place the pan over medium high heat and saute the shredded cabbage for at least 15 to 20 minutes or until the cabbage is tender and golden brown around the edges.
  4. Stir regularly and lower the heat a little towards the end. Add salt and pepper to taste.

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Fall is Serenity To Me

Today has been a great day. It feels like winter is coming. The temp is dropping down to the mid 30's tonight and we will get our first frost here in Missouri. It's then the leaves will turn and fall will set in. I love fall when there is warm days so you can walk and just look at the beautiful word God created . The wonderful colors of the different trees and plants totally amaze me.  It' such a pity it doesn't last as long as summer. It's truly my favorite time of the year. The weather is cooler so hoodies and boots are in fashion. Bonfires are made as we sit out with our family and friends making forever memories. It really  is a mesmerizing time of the year to me and bring back some wonderful memories of being younger in my life.

Here are some photos that are in my neck of the woods. I can't take credit for them as I  found them on a free photo site. If anyone knows of an author of  the photos please let me know so I can contact them and give them proper recognition.

This is in a neighboring town in Tennessee called Harrogate.

This is in Whitesburg Kentucky

Who wouldn't want to walk on this beautiful road. Trust me I have many times in Beverly Kentucky.

I took some pretty pictures this weekend, while hubby and I were out. I love taking photos and can't wait to take some fall pictures. There's just something about fall that makes me feel peaceful. Its like your spending your last moments with something you love before it dies. You treasure it and nurse it as much as possible even though you know it's not going to make it. Whats so wonderful about letting it go is knowing that in the spring it will come back to life and be even more beautiful and loved than before. I  just truly thinks amazing if you can look at it in that way.

Today I made some cool things I made a Halloween decoration out of a yellow butternut squash and its really cute. It's not finished yet so when I get it done tomorrow will update this page.. Here is the beginning of how it looks.

When I get the mouth cute out a tea light goes in it. I think its adorable and will make a post when I get it finished. The tutorial is over at my business site Influencingangel.com

Well going to call it a night. A Dr. Apt calls for an early morning sweet dreams everyone.

 

Yummy Chicken And Cornbread Casserole

Hey everyone its a good day for yummy chicken and cornbread casserole. I just don’t want this day to end as it’s so beautiful here and I know that it will end soon. I been setting outside since around 8;30 this morning. The squirrels have been so fun to watch today. They are finding food and practically walking right by me to hide it. It’s so cute and funny to watch them pat down a hiding place with their feet.

Last night I prepared a chicken cornbread casserole dish that we have from time to time especially in the winter. I found this recipe on another site some time ago and tweaked it to fit our taste. It’s so hearty with all the vegetables and the sweet cornbread topping is to die for. Hop you enjoy!!

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yummy chicken cornbread casserole

Ingredients

  • 4 large boneless skinless chicken breasts (cubed 1 inch)
  • 1/2 cup diced onions
  • 1/2 cup butter
  • 1 large bag frozen mixed vegetables
  • 1/2 cup all purpose flour
  • 2/3 cup milk
  • 1 1/2 cup chicken broth
  • Salt and pepper to taste
  • 2 Small boxes Jiffy  Cornbread  Mix
  • 5 large potatoes (cute into small cubes around 1 inch each)

Directions

  1. In a large pot cook cubed chicken in 2 Tablespoons of oil on medium heat. Cook about 10 minutes. Take chicken out and set aside.
  2. Now melt butter in the large pot keeping it on medium high heat. Add onions cook 2 minutes. Add in bag of frozen vegetables, around 5 minutes
  3. Stir in flour and cook for 2 minutes, stirring continuously.
  4. In a in bowl whisk chicken broth, milk and flour till no there’s lumps. Allow mixture cook for a few minutes to thicken. Stir in cooked chicken and cook for another minute or so until the entire mixture is hot. Remove from heat.
  5. Pour the mixture in to a 9 x 13 baking pan.
  6. Prepared cornbread mix, smoothing the mixture out to cover the top of the baking pan
  7. Bake at 375. for 25 to 30 minutes. Make sure to bake long enough so that the bottom of the cornbread bakes through. Once the bread is done, remove from oven let sit for few minutes.

Mexican Cheeseburgers

Good after noon you all. I’m late getting this out today. Over slept this morning and had to jump up and take care of my morning things so I could hope on here and get this out.

How is everyone. I’m trying to make it through the day. It’s getting ready to rain and I just want to crawl on the couch and sleep. I really don’t want to do anything but be lazy.

I’ve wanted to make some Mexican food today and decided on Mexican Cheeseburgers with homemade french fries. This a Hubby’s favorite meal. He loves homemade french fries and so do I. They go great with this Mexican  Cheeseburgers and I promise your going to love them. My Kids used to love this meal as well when they lived at home. Hope you enjoy it!

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INGREDIENTS

  • 2 Large Yellow Onion
  • 1 Tablespoon Butter
  • 2 pound Ground Beef
  • 4 Tablespoons Worcestershire Sauce
  • 1 Package Of Taco Seasoning (mild or hot)
  • 6 Slices Monterrey Jack Or Swiss Cheese
  • Hamburger Buns
  • Banana Peppers
  • 2 Jalapenos Peppers
  1. Cut  onions and Jalapenos lengthwise and saute in butter till tender.
  2. In a large bowl, add the ground beef, Worcestershire sauce, and taco seasoning. Mix all the ingredients well and form into 6 burgers and cook in a large skillet to desired wellness. ( I like mine slightly pink inside)
  3. When hamburgers are done place a slice of cheese on them and allow it to melt. Once the cheese has melted, place some of the sauteed onions on top of the burger. 
  4. Place on hamburger buns and add banana peppers and any extra’s you like on your hamburger. Enjoy!!
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