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Pepperoni Basil Tomato Puff Snacks

Hello foodie people.  Today I wanted to make a snack that My Husband I have occasionally. I found this recipe some time ago on Eat Well 101 it’s called Pepperoni Basil Tomato Puff Snacks and is a bite size snack that is delicious and taste great with a salad.

I decided to make this snack as today I’m decorating the house for Christmas and wanted something delicious and fulfilling since it will take me most of the day as I like everything to be perfect. I know your saying its way to early but I love the holiday., They bring family together and that so important anymore. Life is to short so enjoy your family as much as you can.

My daughter and son are coming next week with my grand daughter and I wanted it to be decorated for their visit. We are having an early thanksgiving this year since my daughters vacation starts then. I’m overly excited as its been along time since I have lived so far away from them. Visit are not easy like they used to be.

OK enough about me and on to the recipe. I hope you enjoy this. Don’t forget it taste great with a garden salad.

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  • 1 sheet puff pastry
  • 1 or 2 tomatoes, sliced
  • 1/2 cup shredded Parmesan
  •  Sliced Pepperoni
  • Fresh basil, chopped
  • 1 egg yolk mixed with 1 teaspoon water, for gilding
  • Salt and fresh cracked pepper


1. Preheat your oven to 360°F (180°C). Roll out the puff pastry and transfer on a baking sheet lined with parchment paper. Cut 9 squares (approx. 3-inch/8cm)

2. On each square, arrange a tomato slice, topped with 2 pepperoni slices, parmesan, salt, pepper and chopped basil. Fold to opposite corners of each squares to form little boats.

3. Brush each pastry with the egg yolk, then refrigerate for 10-15 minutes before baking in the oven for 15-20 minutes, until cheese is melted and pastries are puffed and golden. Serve immediately, enjoy!

Double the recipe if you want more.





Old Places and Things

Abandoned house in Liberty, Missouri.

I Absolutely love old abandoned Places and Things.. In-fact I have an board on Pinterest just for that. I have over 350 pictures of old things.

It's funny how with age everything changes and you want things that you once said no to. You are now like yes whey didn't I like that years ago.

My favorite things are old place likes houses and barns any kind of old buildings. They once told of story of happiness or sadness.

I have some old pictures of mental home places and only God knows what kind of stories they could tell. Here are some of my  favorites.


I love Grand Staircases


Can You imagine how beautiful  this would be restored


I remember my  grandmother had and old well and my mother would walk to draw water from it.

Old mill, Black Forest, Germany.

Love.. Love this old mill in the woods


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Well I think it's safe to say that the spirit  of Christmas  has hit me. I not only made the above picture my screen saver on my phone, but also decorated the house.

I've always loved Christmas, however some years are very difficult for me. This time last year my husband Martin put up the tree only, because  I was severely depressed.

I started to withdraw from my friends and family for days at a time. I had never felt this kind depression before. By Christmas I simply just couldn't  take life anymore. It was then that I spent weeks in bed. I really didn't understand  what was happening to me. I felt like life wasn't worth it anymore.

I just thank God I kept holding on to what faith I had. If it was not for him saving me  I'd  be dead today. I really prayed for death every single day.

I thank God things happened the way they did, it may have caused me to lose my friends, but at least I have a whole new take on life. Trust me I have bad days with this bipolar depression but at least my outlook is different. I stopped trying to please the world and concentrated on me. It was truly the only way I'd get better. It cost me my friends and I almost lost my family but thankfully they still love me.

I guess when your really down and out and trying recover, that's when you find out who's truly there for however long it takes for you to get well. And it took me months and months but I guess I pushed everyone away by wanting to be alone. I just couldn't get people  to understand that I  couldn't  help myself to feel different. I wanted  to be ok but my mind wouldn't let me.

It's a year later now and things are different for me. I've learned  to take any and all happiness that comes my way. I'm so thankful to my father and his son Jesus for sparing me and my family the terrible thing as suicide. I sometimes can't  believe that I  was so sick that I  wished for death everyday and almost made that possible.

It's so different this year for the holidays. For the first time in many years I'm actually looking forward to it. I've learned to except the fact that certain family members will be with me if they really want to, and if they don't that's fine to. As long as I have my husband and all my fur babies I can and will survive. I will just pray for those I love who feel different, that no matter what maybe someday things will be ok and if not at least I had hope.

Hope and faith is everything. Having that in life is everything you need to help you survive bipolar depression.



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